keeping things whole

weird dreams

2010-01-23T12:55:00.000-08:00

last night i dreamt that i stumbled into a truck stop bathroom to find a mexican man doing cocaine against a stall door. he offered me some on his pinky nail, i took it, left without using the bathroom and proceeded to drive all night, to an unknown destination, listening to the beegees all the way.

spiders

2010-01-20T11:35:00.000-08:00

i had this weird dream, i was bit by a spider, and all these weird lesions bumped up all over my skin and they looked mad sick but i couldnt go to a doctor because i didnt have health insurance, but no one seemed to notice them so i hoped for the best and waited to see if they would go away. then they went away, but i ran into this doctor guy on the street and casually mentioned it, and he freaked out and got mad serious and told me that i was fine until one of the lesions burst, because when it did it let all of the oxygen out of my blood and my heart would stop unless i got to a hospital within 5 minutes. so everything was cool beans until one day the lesions showed up again, and they were worse this time, all pulsing like in the gremlins movie when they accidentally get gizmo wet, mad gross. so im freaking out and one of the lesions bursts, and starts spraying out like a geyser, so then it became this big dramatic sequence of me trying to stop the spray and get to a hospital but no one would help me get there and it was getting past the 5 minute mark and thats when i woke up.

fuck, what the hell does that mean!?

the paper

2009-12-17T22:45:00.000-08:00

so i decided that i want to start a local paper.
i got the idea randomly looking at a "coffee times" in a biscuitville in raleigh (and i always said nothing good ever happened in raleigh).
its a simple long page, sort of old style paper, folded once.
articles in the middle, ads along the edge.
reading yes weekly and rhino times while wating on food is almost intolerable, there is so much bullshit.
also, i have some of the most talented friends ever, and i want to put their talents to good use, and get them some recognition for them, and if possible get us all paid, son.

so here is the tentative line up:

columns/articles

movie reviews - kyle milton
world in review - kevin wood
editorial/really anything - mika chance
astrology - lee ann
eats (food reviews) - sawyer beaton
book reviews- allyson deaton
stranger than fiction (weird news)- myself
miss understood (advice column) - adrienne testa
beer of the week - kevin purcell

other things:

local happenings - brought to you by whysobored & my favorite things
new music releases/college radio top 10 - brought to you by wuag/wqfs
new on dvd (by video review?)
sudoku/crossword - stolen from somewhere
word of the day
this week in 1980
comics - victor devlin, brad neely (creased comics), married to the sea
deal of the week
carousel movie times
trivia question - kevin wood

possible things that we may or may not do eventually:

mix tape download
free song from a local band download
connect the dots
new/old music reviews - sawyer
comic drama wrap up - vic
sports - michael sileno
classifieds/free to a good home (classifieds)

im still trying to come up with a catchy name for the whole thing.
if anybody has any suggestions AT ALL, for a name, or a something you think it needs, content wise, do not hesitate to contact me!!!

i need to write more, so i will.

2009-10-05T21:45:00.000-07:00

i have always denied that i was a "hopeless romantic", but lately i have been thinking more about what that actually means. to me, it used to mean that when, in a relationship, you went out of your way to kiss in the rain, or you laid rose pedals upon the bed before "making sweet love" or you leave a trail of love notes for your sleeping partner leading them to a box of chocolates and a valentines bouquet. but lately, it kinda means you have dreams and ideals regarding romance that are almost implausible, fairy tales. now, according to this definition, i AM a hopeless romantic, i think most people are. but im also a realist, in that, i realize that these thoughts and hopes are most likely going to never occur in real life, scenarios are never going to pan out the way that i imagine them, yet, i still have them. what is this exactly? i somehow never get exactly what i want, but somehow persevere, without becoming discouraged or depressed or bitter.

would these things still be on my mind if i had never watched cinderella as a child, or heard the story of rapunzel? a part of me says yes, a part says no. i guess there is no way to really tell, and there is no real answer to this, only an opinion, of which i still have conflicting views. just something i was thinking about. it seems to me romance is dead. patience is dead. there is no mystery left. the internet killed it, technology killed it. you know almost everything you would like to know about a person by just clicking a website. all the questions you would have to have actually asked 15 years ago. this in turn, forms an opinion in your head. i like this person, i hate this person, this person is hot/ugly. i make opinions based on peoples musical taste, their favorite movies or authors, and yet, in my own life, i have very little of these things in common with my best of friends. of course there are some core similarities, but for the most part, on paper, on viewing them on the internet, i might not be inclined to befriend them.

today i sat down to write a letter, a real letter (one you send in the mail), to an almost complete stranger, and realized that i didn't even own paper. i had no envelopes, i had no stamps. this struck me as incredibly sad, amongst other things, but i wont get into all that.

do yourself a favor, take someone you barely know, write them a letter, say anything you are thinking about, be only yourself, no fronts, don't hold back, after all, what have you really got to lose? tell them something about yourself, anything. ask them a question, start out with something simple, like "what's your favorite shape?". remember what its like to feel a pen in your hand, the sound of paper tearing, dream about their reaction to the letter, anticipate receiving one in return. don't lurk them on the internet or warn them of its arrival, or chat with them on aim, or text them, kick it old school for as long as possible.

now, see what happens.
simple as that.
i feel like we have lost a lot of things in this day and age, that seem important to get back. im going to start doing some things differently, maybe you will too, if anything you might start to feel some things you never thought you could again.

just an idea...

goodnight.

i've got a crush

2009-09-25T16:32:00.001-07:00

on a girl.

hands in pockets

2009-09-14T00:46:00.000-07:00

solo hang today.
it was good but,
i think too much.

fall hit like a car wreck, i usually have more time to adapt than this overnight thing that happened. house of tad died, schools back in, my three month jobless vacation has come to an end with a full time job working 40 hours starting tuesday.

i finally saw 500 days of summer today, it was good, although the parallels between it and my relationship with caitlin were pretty staggering. not really a bad thing, it was just weird to think about things i haven't thought about in a long time. it seems like a lifetime ago.

i am not one to complain, anyone who knows me knows that, but periodically i get hit with a crushing wave of loneliness that is hard to deal with. im not depressed, it always passes, just, days like today are emotional.

ive been riding my bike 6 - 10 miles a day, and was lucky enough to score a job at a bike shop. my car is out of commission and the shop is within riding distance so im excited about getting into shape again.

why is it so hard for me to follow through with anything unless its forced on me?

i should write more, im bad at it.

goodnight moon.

in addition to my last post, let me add

2009-08-11T18:14:00.000-07:00

a girl that doesn't own a cat or want to be a vampire.

you would be surprised at how many of the female population this will disqualify.

i just want to find a girl

2009-07-08T21:52:00.000-07:00

that doesn't mind it when i want to grow my depp-stache out, just to see how gross it can get.

because she gets how funny it would be.

redbear, day 4

2009-07-01T20:00:00.000-07:00

so today i was going to try to finish her up, and that is almost what i did.
i put the chassis back in and the feet and the handle and the grill.

it looks super fucking rad.
i WILL post some pics soon, not that really anyone would care that much, but it might be nice for anyone reading this that has no idea what i am talking about.

i did decide that i am going to order some new metal corners, the old ones are hella heavy duty and huge and look lame. they are distracting from its beauty.

i am also still going to paint the inside lip black so it doesnt look kinda discolored and unfinished, like it does now.

i am still on the fence with the grill.
it looks cool as is, but i feel like it might look cooler with a custom front.
i talked to the guys at emperor and they are gonna sell me some grill cloth that matches my cab. probably for pretty cheap, so im just going to order it and make the thing and try it out. if it works better then awesome, if not, i really didnt lose much.

plus i forgot how much fun projects like this are. im stoked on how it turned out but im also sad that its almost over with.

in other news , as soon as i get me bass head fixed and sold, im going to order an emperor 4x12 to match my 2x12. kris is getting a 6x12 from mojotone and i cant let him be louder than me.

i think i have west nile virus from victors front porch.

pics soooooon.

redbear, day 3

2009-06-29T19:54:00.001-07:00

so it took me 5 hours, but i sanded the entire thing down.

the sander that i borrowed completely broke about 3 hours in so the rest was done completley by hand. this, was intense.

originally i was going to leave the bottom alone, but when it came down to it, i had to see what i could do, and then it became a mission.

this project has made me feel super accomplished, its a rad feeling.

so anyway, i got the whole thing sanded and then i applied the stain.

it looks super sick, i cant wait to put on the semi-gloss top coat tomorrow and get the electronics back in.

i decided against the plexi glass idea, if the inside of the amp was cleaner, this might rule. but i am just going to by some grill cloth and make a frame to stick in the front of it. kris suggested i just stick the grills back in and be done with it. originally i hated the grills, but after all this it might look cool, im going to try it out and see what i think.

i actually did take a couple of pics this time, but they are on my phone and i need to figure out how to get them off of my phone before i can upload them.

awesome.

redbear, day 2

2009-06-28T18:08:00.000-07:00

so forgot to take before pictures.
and then pictures after the carpet came off.
and pictures after i used goof off to get the furry off.
and pictures after i tried unsuccessfully to start sanding it down.

i could have avoided all that typing by just saying i forgot to take pictures.
but when i was halfway though it, i felt like it would be wasteful for me to delete it all and start over.

anyway, i went to lowes today and found this really rad stain on sale for like $4 when all the other ones were $10. i was originally going to stain it black but i think this will look classier. it like a dark pine color.

i also decided that i am going to put plexi glass over the front where the ugly grate was, i think that would be sick.

anyway, sanding didnt work, the color on it is too deep and the residue left from the carpet is making it ten times harder than it should be because i have to get through that crap before any actual sanding starts to happen.

im borrowing a sander tomorrow and im going to try to take pics.

awesome, i like have a project like this going on, hopefully its going to look as rad as i think it will.

later!

redbear

2009-06-28T09:04:00.000-07:00

thought i would make a post about something other than dumb fucking people in my life for once.

i decided, with the help of kris, that i would strip the carpet off of my recbear amp head, sand it down and stain it the same color as emperor cabinet, which is going to rule.

so yesterday, kris helped me take the chassis out and i ripped al of the carpet off. this was a serious pain in the ass. britney loaned me a pair of gardening gloves and i had some tiny pliers to work with, otherwise it would have been impossible.

i then was left with a slightly furry box of wood.

after trying, with the help of big steve, for more than an hour to sand what was left ot the fur off, i figured out that it might be a good i dea to use some sort of paint thinner or something to get the rest of it off.

so i went to lowes and bought something called goof off.

this worked wonders. the fur is all gone.

then i went to see sundrone, they killed it.

today i am going to sand everything down to the bare wood and go buy some stain. i'll post some pics later, for everyone that doesnt give a shit about this kind of thing, which is everyone but me and kris.

love, jason

i never thought i would ever fucking say this...

2009-06-18T21:37:00.000-07:00

but,

i wish i had never met you.

done.

dear world,

2009-03-29T20:50:00.000-07:00

it seems some of you here in greensboro (and probably everywhere else) think that it doesnt cost anything for bands to go on tour, that all shows should be free, all music should be free, that we are doing this for our own personal amusement, that a "DIY punk show" is just an excuse for you to go get drunk somewhere other than your dorm room, or that a "house show" is just a reason for you to do coke in someone else's bathroom.

and plus there is probably some really cool "ironic" "90's" dance party you can go to that night instead of hanging out with your friends and supporting bands who PLAY MUSIC FOR A LIVING.

"oh, but we are poor, we have to buy BEER, and COCAINE, and whatever crap american apparel tells us we want to wear this week" what do we look like some kind of stupid rich, ny hipsters?"

no, you look like stupid, rich, NC hipsters.

FOR THE RECORD:
the donations we are taking at the door of our house show, are ALL GOING TO THE TOURING BANDS.

we are not making any money off of this, and JESUS, $5 dollars is not a lot to ask for a night of good music.

you spend more than that a day on cigarettes, come on people, you can't expect any changes to happen in this world if you arent willing to make a few tiny sacrifices.

this is what is called a "suggested donation".
an amount we would LIKE to get from everyone, in a "crazy dream world", but if you only have 2 or 3 dollars we are not going to turn you away.

you should WANT to donate.

you like MUSIC!?
BANDS make music.
sometimes its nice to get to a town and not worry if you are going to make enough money that night to put gas in your broken down minivan.

when everyone downloads your shit for free off the internet, its not like you can count on making any royalties from CD SALES.

when was the last time YOU bought a NEW CD anyway!?

...that's what i thought.

fuck.

graveyard sex

2009-03-08T23:24:00.000-07:00

i can't help but say something like "it's never been like this"
we defined the word cool and i traded a heart for a smile.
we slept together with our heads touching and i wondered if our brains would melt together and we would share the same dreams, but then wake up not remembering.

reading this just made me cry.
and this is why i love kyle milton.
in a world of a million shitty stupid zines (none of which has EVER impressed me) and mediocre writers, the anteater's dream is the only one worth reading.
it will make you laugh til you cry, and it is amazing.
issue three was just pressed.
and its rare reading something this good, let alone from a person you know, let alone a friend of yours.
and it makes me wonder, just like your friend's shitty band, is it better because i know him?
but the answer is no, its not, he is an incredible writer and an incredible dude, at the same time and seperately.

really, i wouldnt be doing this for just anything.
do yourself a favor and contact him, he will send you issue three, and you will fall in love.
he might even make a copy of issue two or issue one, he is a pretty nice dude.

www.myspace.com/skeetking420420

i had a pretty stellar weekend.
spring is almost here and can't fucking wait.
goodnight.

collector

2009-01-30T22:15:00.000-08:00

compose yourself
get your thoughts down
decide what it is you have to say
because literal or not
whatever it might mean
can't be the worst decision you have ever made

but the liquid left in my lungs still feels foreign
like the stench left from that room on your skin
and its been 1,000 days but i can taste it
slightly sweet, bitter, smoke

we do this every night
still pretending like
we don't know it always ends the same

every sleepless night, has been the time of my life, i just wanted to thank you.

2009-01-26T16:15:00.000-08:00

my life as of late has been a whirlwind of people coming and going and a touch of weird drama out of no where.

it has left me feeling...sort of disoriented? its not something i can easily describe.

some of my favorite people have found more important people, and paths, i guess these things happen, but its been hard on me and i miss them terribly. some people i had terribly missed are suddenly back in my life, which is exciting and relieving, and there are some refreshing new faces and personalities that mostly cancel out all of the aforementioned.

mostly...

also, being broke as hell isn't helping anything.

so its weird having so much happen at complete ends of the spectrum. it leaves you floating uncomfortably in the middle, but thankfully, in my case, leaning more to the bright side.

all in all, im sure things will get back to normal soon enough, they always do.
my band, is keeping everything together quite nicely, writing is going extremely well and we are all really, really excited about playing out and sharing it with everyone. if i didnt have it as an outlet i think i would lose my mind.

the future is wide open.

baby, its cold outside.

2008-12-24T19:50:00.001-08:00

its christmas eve.
today i realized for the millionth time, how amazing my family is.
and how lucky i am to have them.

my mom and dad are the cutest people i know, they are totally still in love after 28 years of marriage. it blows my mind and continuously gives me hope that there is someone out there that i am meant to happily spend the rest of my life with. its a crazy thought, and sappy, but true.

the ride to mount airy, was cramped, but fun.

christmas eve at the lundy's is always unpredictable.
but todays event became legendary when i awoke from a nice nap to the sound of my uncle and grandfather shooting a 9mm pistol from the front porch.
arriving downstairs, what looked to be the arsenal for a small army was spread upon the couch.
now, i hate guns, with a passion, but after catching up on what i had missed, i just had to laugh.
classic lundy, man.

now, i am the opposite of a religous person.
i don't believe in christmas.
but i love this time of year and what surrounds the holiday, getting to spend quality time with family that you dont get to see very much and giving well thought out presents to the ones you care about the most.

my life is back on the upswing and i am excited about the near future:

tomorrow morning
lindsey
the nutcracker
new years eve
collector
playing music with ryan dean
going back to school
starting a career

and anything that comes my way.
i am ready for it.

merry christmas everyone, i hope you are spending it with the ones you love.

HEY!

2008-11-29T20:01:00.000-08:00

i'm thirsty...

no.

but really, i figured it out, man.
i got this.

im going back to school and it feels amazing.

and so relieving.

i know exactly what i want to do, and it only took me 27 years to be sure.

fuck you jimmy johns, i'll be leaving soon.

this winter might actually end up being pretty alright.

<3

watermark

2008-11-16T11:07:00.000-08:00

i've got this chronic problem,
where i know exactly what the outcome of a questionable situation is going to be.
but i completely ignore that
and just go for it anyway.
i guess, in hopes of the 0.000000000000001% chance
that it won't turn out the way i know its going to.

and EVERY SINGLE TIME i think that i have learned my lesson.

nope.
completely disregarded.

fuck, its draining.

on an unrelated side note:

why is it so fucking hard for people to be honest!?!?

everyone should try it, it rules way harder than you think.

so...
i'm pretty unhappy with my life right now and i have no idea where to go from here.

i have no doubt that i will figure it out eventually, but for now, its becoming increasingly difficult to stay optimistic.

and that is a feeling i'm not very used to.

lately im fighting awfully hard the desire to fall back into a hermit like state that once was very comfortable.
but i was happy to get out of.

i guess it is that time of year, though.

luckily tuesday night will always be dollar night.
see you at the bar, man.

today's the day.

2008-10-24T12:23:00.000-07:00

i think i might have been a little bit upset when i posted that last entry.

tonight we drink to new beginnings.

<3

tonight's the night.

2008-10-07T18:38:00.000-07:00

i want to crash my car into the ocean.
i want to ride my bike to the moon.
i want to sleep in the baseball stadium.
i want to start a fire in my room.
i want to break my computer.
i want to make some popcorn.
i want to hide this picture.

i want to fuck a complete stranger.

i want to drink until i blackout.
i want to take another shower.
i want to eat a cheeseburger.
i want to murder everyone with a McCain/Palin bumper sticker.
i want to tear down every fucking billboard.
i want to turn my phone off for a full year.
i want to learn how to lie again.

i want to always remember that its going to get worse, before it gets better.
but it will always get better.

my life

2008-10-05T15:57:00.000-07:00

is the best sitcom you have ever seen.

romance
drama
comedy
action
adventure
new twists around ever corner!!!

what will happen next!?!?!?!?

tune in to find out.

<3

battle axe.

2008-09-29T13:40:00.001-07:00

today i am angry.
for the first time in a very, very long time.
over bullshit, ALL OF IT.
way too much at one time.

i never fucking learn.

my name is jason foster.
tomorrow i will be 27 years old, and i'm fucking pissed off.
happy birthday to me.

<3

nerd house.

2008-07-02T03:14:00.000-07:00

so i had new reality show idea.
i think it would be a huge success.

NERD HOUSE

basically you just get a whole lot of the smartest, egocentric and most socially awkward, people you can find.
and then put them all in a house together.
i think it might make things funnier/more interesting, if it was just a regular house. 4 bedroom, 2 1/2 bath, in a normal neighborhood.
with like 20 people trying to live in it.
sleeping bags and blankets will be provided, along with a few couches and beds (not an even number though, someone will always be missing out.)
they will be allowed to leave, but their only transportation will be 1 smart car and 1 children's bicycle. (not each, total)
and then you make them do challenges.
half brain type and half physical.
the two, or one who wins these challenges will be immune to being voted off by the rest of the group.
no teams or sides, its every nerd for themselves.

i would watch this every week, religuously.

OH!
and the celebrity host will be carlton from the fresh prince.

<3

sweater weather.

2008-06-27T13:42:00.001-07:00

story states
that i need more
to keep me from
being awake
than a book,

i need a battle.

there's a little light on somewhere
keeping me from completely falling asleep.

(story of my life, man)

guh.

2008-06-16T21:32:00.001-07:00

And I try not to worry,
but you've got me terrified.
it's like we're in some kind of hurry
to say goodbye.

infinite repeat.

live through this, and you won't look back.

2008-06-01T15:24:00.000-07:00

things are finally starting to evolve and its more relieving than i expected.

i feel good about the immediate future.
really, really good.

in other news...

i quit b.b.'s
that place has become a shit hole
i dont know how it is still open now.
i have a really sweet new haircut.
a really rad new house.
the king of all porches.
a good job and great friends.
and a lot of plans for the summer.

like bringing a knife to a gunfight.

2008-05-26T10:41:00.000-07:00

godamn, i needed that.

<3

chapter 5ish

2008-04-28T02:24:00.000-07:00

now comes the hard part.

my life

2008-04-12T08:20:00.000-07:00

is so fucking weird right now.

i wish i had words to describe this feeling.

fuck.

without mythologies.

2008-04-06T12:13:00.000-07:00

if it weren't for my band i would have lost my mind by now.

we played our first show last night.
it was probably the most amazing and violent act i have ever been a part of.
also the most cathartic.

i have no idea whats going on anymore, and i feel lost.
i definitely have absolutely NO control over any part of this thing.
thats nothing new though, i never have.
and its what i need, but its exhausting.
i just have a feeling, that soon, everything is going to fall apart.

fuck, i hate this doubt, its not me.
but the line we walk is a thin one.

i somehow find comfort in knowing that you don't understand this any more than me.

sorry, im just thinking out loud now.
i've been avoiding a post like this for a while, it just helps so much to write it down.

for the first time in a long time i feel the overwhelming desire to leave.
leave this state.
leave this country.

both will happen soon.

let's explode.

where do we go from here?

2008-03-17T19:57:00.000-07:00

just about anywhere.

i'm at a loss for words.

<3

life as of late.

2008-02-26T10:15:00.000-08:00

has been crazy.
but for the most part, amazing.

new friends.
insane adventures.
intense parties.

war elephant is going strong and picking up momentum.
im anxious to play our first show.
ive never been more happy and fulfilled in a band like this and it feels incredible.
i cant wait to start playing and share it with everyone.
even though most of you will probably hate it.
hahaha

thebreathing has been on hold lately, that stuff has always been more for me than anyone else.
but i have had a burst of creativity the past week and i wrote a new song.
i will leave you with it.

see you all in party town, i'll be the guy slapping your girlfriend's ass and filling your hat with cheese balls.

<3

thai tea

it's been a long year
but you know just as well as i
cause we have walked the same roads
the same time

and we have been alone
for our whole lives
so what's the big deal now?

only
this one thought remains
solely

(don't leave)

yeah, we have been over this
and i have been over it
over and over again

but to tell you the truth
i wouldn't let go of you
even if i knew how to

so i'm lost
and it's late
and ive been thinking these thoughts too long
without saying anything
its cold
and im confused
so please bare with me
bare with me
please

at least
until i find the words i need

i think...

2008-02-03T21:17:00.001-08:00

sometimes you just need to lay in your floor, listening to novi split and staring at the ceiling fan for an hour or two, to put your whole life into perspective.

this will be a good year.

<3

winter dies the same way every spring.

2008-01-22T21:23:00.000-08:00

the weakerthans are the only band that can still bring tears to my eyes every fucking time.
every time.

i just saw the movie sunshine.
i have to say,
it sort of blew me away.

im unstable at the moment but it feels good to be this vulnerable every once in a while.

this year is going to be an interesting one.
on both side of the fence.
i dont know if that really makes sense.
it does to me.
this blog isnt going to make much sense, i can already tell.

i apologize in advance.

lately i have discovered some new things about myself.
i like knowing myself so well.
you know, all you have to do is listen.
its scary sometimes.
i go into my head and just think about the things i do, or don't.
i know every issue.

but lately i have been wondering why.
its not as easy to pinpoint.
and what is the cure exactly?
and would i change anything if i could?

i think i genuinely enjoy the turmoil as much as the highs.
that may be fucked up but its true and i am okay with that.
i feel alive.
and im not depressed, or really crazy, or have any serious problems.
i am thankful for that.
and im glad i can still be honest with myself, as well as most people i know.

there are some people i miss too much.
there are some people i dont miss as much as i should.
there are things i cant control.
there are things i can, but don't.
there are games i play that arent healthy.
and i wish i could stop before i hurt someone else that i love.
is knowing these things even helpful?

this is going deeper than i originally desired it to go.
im opting out before it gets out of hand.

in the end, it feels good to be able to say, if i love you, you know it.

<3

if mike huckabee wins

2008-01-17T14:10:00.000-08:00

i will kill myself.

or him.

or i am moving out of the country.

i will not live in mike huckabees america.

seriously, is anyone paying attention?

number one : he is a baptist fucking minister

2. seperation of church and state? fuck no. FUCK NO.

"My faith is my life - it defines me. My faith doesn't influence my decisions, it drives them. For example, when it comes to the environment, I believe in being a good steward of the earth. I don't separate my faith from my personal and professional lives."

3. over turning the roe vs. wade verdict? fuck womens right to choose. god doesnt think its right, he asked him about it.

4. BANNING GAY MARRIGIAGE by fighting for a constitutional amendment defining marriage as one man and one woman? only straight people deserve to be happy, right? he also talked to god about this one.

5. war in iraq? keep it going.

"Setting a timetable for withdrawal is a mistake. This country has never declared war until "a week from Wednesday," we have always declared war until victory."

what exactly are we trying to "win" here, mike?

6. guns? everyone should own one. baby's. criminals. its in the constitution for gods sakes

number seven: hes a baptist fucking minister.

are you fucking kidding me.

im so angry right now.

come on america, dont let me down again.

please?

<3

back to reality.

2008-01-14T09:28:00.000-08:00

come to think of it, i really prefer complications.

okay, thats nothing new.

shutup jason.

okay.

so this is the new year.

2007-12-31T12:32:00.000-08:00

obligatory end of the year post:

this year has been pretty insane.

i had the best spring and summer i have had in years.

YEARS.

followed by a kind of fucked fall.

but it was really to be expected.

followed by a pretty amazing winter, so far.

things change, or dont.

people change, or dont.

either way, life goes on.

i honestly dont think i would change a thing if i could.

i made some mistakes, but i learned from them.

i met some of the most amazing people in the world.

im positive my life will never be the same because of them, and that is a good thing.

i learned some things about myself, i always do.

i learned some things about others, good and bad.

all in all it has been a productive year, and the good out weighs the bad by a ton.

im ending it happy and optimistic.

resolutions are as follows:

travel travel travel travel.

ride my bike, swim, get in shape.

travel more.

war elephant.

be less slutty.

stay better in touch with friends that need to be stayed in touch with.

travel even more.

get in control/stay on top of my finances.

record.

and thats about it really.

i love you all, thank you for everything.

<3 jason

honk if you <3 jessica simpson.

2007-11-29T15:57:00.000-08:00

today consisted of paying off debts hanging over me from the past 6 months (or more) and finally picking up my sweet ass bike.

it feels amazing.

money is okay for once, and it couldnt have come at a better time.

but thats the way it usually goes with me (knock on wood).

i like to imagine my life as a truman show sort of movie, where, just as i start to struggle to the point where it becomes sad, the director throws me a bone to keep things going. im not really very good at taking care of myself, i realize this.

i finally saw darjeeling limited last night and it exeeded my expectations. wes anderson speaks straight to my heart.

THANKSGIVING WAS AMAZING, it was spent more with friends than family but i havent had that much fun in a long time.

did i mention, money is good for once?

it is.

im almost to a point where my "studio" has everything it "needs", im stoked. write a song, i will record it for you.

also i have been using alot of quotations lately in writing and in conversation, is that annoying?

and i have been using the word jank (junk) far too frequently.

but i like it.

i'll quit when i become overly aware that i am doing it too much.

im trying to write more, and read more. its good for the mind, im far too worried about losing as i get older, Alzheimer's is a family trait on both sides of the fam. and my brain is already fucked from drugs. they say though, that if you continue to excersize it as you get older that it can prolong the effects. also they have quite a few drugs now that are helping. "helping" being the opporative word.

anyway!

they have started playing christmas music on the radio, that makes me happy.

it also means christmas is coming/almost here, and i love christmas time. i hate cold weather and i am the opposite of a religious person, so i realize that this is a little odd, but this time of year really has such an energy and excitement to it. its really tied with halloween for favorite holiday.

war elephant has slowed down as of late but that is about to change. expect shows early next year at the latest.

boston market is good, get some.

bye!

<3 jason

my favorite metal album cover.

2007-11-20T11:47:00.000-08:00

2 posts in one day!

im on a roll.

now, working in a record store i see my fair share of completely amazing, totally disgusting and very bad metal album covers.

this, though, i have decided is my favorite.

(this will HOPEFULLY be what the birth
of my child will be like. finger's crossed)

acheron, you did it.

you incorporated everything i like to see on my metal album covers without overdoing it, as so many of your peers tend to do.

boobs, blood, upside down crosses, pentagrams, shadowy robed figures and of course, tiny devils with wings being born out of bleeding vaginas.

you could have thrown a goat in the mix, but you said "you know what guys, i think this is perfect the way it is. if we did that some might say we were trying too hard, and we dont want that, now do we? i didnt think so."

some close runner's up include:

cannibal corpse
cattle decapitation
vomitory
aborted

if ever there comes a day that i run across one that stands up to acheron's i will be sure to let all of you know.

this will be hopefully be last post today.

word.

<3 jason

donor.

2007-11-20T09:39:00.000-08:00

is the word donor only funny because it rhymes with boner?

this was my first impression.

BUT!

think about the word loner.

not really funny at all.

these are the things i think about, discuss.

<3 jason

let the blogging begin.

2007-11-05T21:10:00.000-08:00

so, to fulfill my strange need/desire to tell my most intimate of thoughts to strangers.

and seeing as i have nothing but disgust for livejournal.

i have decided to start a blog.

myspace works okay but this just feels more appropriate.

and official.

so i'm going to try to update this pretty often.

more often that im sure some of you will care about.

this is really only for me.

and for those who know me or care to know me better.

maybe too well.

because as most of you know, i am a big fan of honesty.

and bringing up things that most people dont talk about, or want to talk about, but i'm pretty sure think about.

also, i am realizing that most of the time i have the mind of a 12 year old boy.

it's all just poop jokes and word "balls" alot.

and bottom, the word bottom rules, and manhole.

okay, sorry. but i think you are getting the idea here.

some posts are going to be serious, but not most.

bye!

<3 jason