collector

compose yourself
get your thoughts down
decide what it is you have to say
because literal or not
whatever it might mean
can't be the worst decision you have ever made

but the liquid left in my lungs still feels foreign
like the stench left from that room on your skin
and its been 1,000 days but i can taste it
slightly sweet, bitter, smoke

we do this every night
still pretending like
we don't know it always ends the same

every sleepless night, has been the time of my life, i just wanted to thank you.

my life as of late has been a whirlwind of people coming and going and a touch of weird drama out of no where.

it has left me feeling...sort of disoriented? its not something i can easily describe.

some of my favorite people have found more important people, and paths, i guess these things happen, but its been hard on me and i miss them terribly. some people i had terribly missed are suddenly back in my life, which is exciting and relieving, and there are some refreshing new faces and personalities that mostly cancel out all of the aforementioned.

mostly...

also, being broke as hell isn't helping anything.

so its weird having so much happen at complete ends of the spectrum. it leaves you floating uncomfortably in the middle, but thankfully, in my case, leaning more to the bright side.

all in all, im sure things will get back to normal soon enough, they always do.
my band, is keeping everything together quite nicely, writing is going extremely well and we are all really, really excited about playing out and sharing it with everyone. if i didnt have it as an outlet i think i would lose my mind.



the future is wide open.