Thursday, December 17, 2009

the paper

so i decided that i want to start a local paper.
i got the idea randomly looking at a "coffee times" in a biscuitville in raleigh (and i always said nothing good ever happened in raleigh).
its a simple long page, sort of old style paper, folded once.
articles in the middle, ads along the edge.
reading yes weekly and rhino times while wating on food is almost intolerable, there is so much bullshit.
also, i have some of the most talented friends ever, and i want to put their talents to good use, and get them some recognition for them, and if possible get us all paid, son.

so here is the tentative line up:

columns/articles

movie reviews - kyle milton
world in review - kevin wood
editorial/really anything - mika chance
astrology - lee ann
eats (food reviews) - sawyer beaton
book reviews- allyson deaton
stranger than fiction (weird news)- myself
miss understood (advice column) - adrienne testa
beer of the week - kevin purcell

other things:

local happenings - brought to you by whysobored & my favorite things
new music releases/college radio top 10 - brought to you by wuag/wqfs
new on dvd (by video review?)
sudoku/crossword - stolen from somewhere
word of the day
this week in 1980
comics - victor devlin, brad neely (creased comics), married to the sea
deal of the week
carousel movie times
trivia question - kevin wood


possible things that we may or may not do eventually:

mix tape download
free song from a local band download
connect the dots
new/old music reviews - sawyer
comic drama wrap up - vic
sports - michael sileno
classifieds/free to a good home (classifieds)

im still trying to come up with a catchy name for the whole thing.
if anybody has any suggestions AT ALL, for a name, or a something you think it needs, content wise, do not hesitate to contact me!!!

Monday, October 5, 2009

i need to write more, so i will.

i have always denied that i was a "hopeless romantic", but lately i have been thinking more about what that actually means. to me, it used to mean that when, in a relationship, you went out of your way to kiss in the rain, or you laid rose pedals upon the bed before "making sweet love" or you leave a trail of love notes for your sleeping partner leading them to a box of chocolates and a valentines bouquet. but lately, it kinda means you have dreams and ideals regarding romance that are almost implausible, fairy tales. now, according to this definition, i AM a hopeless romantic, i think most people are. but im also a realist, in that, i realize that these thoughts and hopes are most likely going to never occur in real life, scenarios are never going to pan out the way that i imagine them, yet, i still have them. what is this exactly? i somehow never get exactly what i want, but somehow persevere, without becoming discouraged or depressed or bitter.

would these things still be on my mind if i had never watched cinderella as a child, or heard the story of rapunzel? a part of me says yes, a part says no. i guess there is no way to really tell, and there is no real answer to this, only an opinion, of which i still have conflicting views. just something i was thinking about. it seems to me romance is dead. patience is dead. there is no mystery left. the internet killed it, technology killed it. you know almost everything you would like to know about a person by just clicking a website. all the questions you would have to have actually asked 15 years ago. this in turn, forms an opinion in your head. i like this person, i hate this person, this person is hot/ugly. i make opinions based on peoples musical taste, their favorite movies or authors, and yet, in my own life, i have very little of these things in common with my best of friends. of course there are some core similarities, but for the most part, on paper, on viewing them on the internet, i might not be inclined to befriend them.

today i sat down to write a letter, a real letter (one you send in the mail), to an almost complete stranger, and realized that i didn't even own paper. i had no envelopes, i had no stamps. this struck me as incredibly sad, amongst other things, but i wont get into all that.

do yourself a favor, take someone you barely know, write them a letter, say anything you are thinking about, be only yourself, no fronts, don't hold back, after all, what have you really got to lose? tell them something about yourself, anything. ask them a question, start out with something simple, like "what's your favorite shape?". remember what its like to feel a pen in your hand, the sound of paper tearing, dream about their reaction to the letter, anticipate receiving one in return. don't lurk them on the internet or warn them of its arrival, or chat with them on aim, or text them, kick it old school for as long as possible.

now, see what happens.
simple as that.
i feel like we have lost a lot of things in this day and age, that seem important to get back. im going to start doing some things differently, maybe you will too, if anything you might start to feel some things you never thought you could again.

just an idea...


goodnight.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Monday, September 14, 2009

hands in pockets

solo hang today.
it was good but,
i think too much.


fall hit like a car wreck, i usually have more time to adapt than this overnight thing that happened. house of tad died, schools back in, my three month jobless vacation has come to an end with a full time job working 40 hours starting tuesday.

i finally saw 500 days of summer today, it was good, although the parallels between it and my relationship with caitlin were pretty staggering. not really a bad thing, it was just weird to think about things i haven't thought about in a long time. it seems like a lifetime ago.

i am not one to complain, anyone who knows me knows that, but periodically i get hit with a crushing wave of loneliness that is hard to deal with. im not depressed, it always passes, just, days like today are emotional.

ive been riding my bike 6 - 10 miles a day, and was lucky enough to score a job at a bike shop. my car is out of commission and the shop is within riding distance so im excited about getting into shape again.

why is it so hard for me to follow through with anything unless its forced on me?

i should write more, im bad at it.

goodnight moon.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

in addition to my last post, let me add

a girl that doesn't own a cat or want to be a vampire.

you would be surprised at how many of the female population this will disqualify.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

i just want to find a girl

that doesn't mind it when i want to grow my depp-stache out, just to see how gross it can get.

because she gets how funny it would be.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

redbear, day 4

so today i was going to try to finish her up, and that is almost what i did.
i put the chassis back in and the feet and the handle and the grill.

it looks super fucking rad.
i WILL post some pics soon, not that really anyone would care that much, but it might be nice for anyone reading this that has no idea what i am talking about.

i did decide that i am going to order some new metal corners, the old ones are hella heavy duty and huge and look lame. they are distracting from its beauty.

i am also still going to paint the inside lip black so it doesnt look kinda discolored and unfinished, like it does now.

i am still on the fence with the grill.
it looks cool as is, but i feel like it might look cooler with a custom front.
i talked to the guys at emperor and they are gonna sell me some grill cloth that matches my cab. probably for pretty cheap, so im just going to order it and make the thing and try it out. if it works better then awesome, if not, i really didnt lose much.

plus i forgot how much fun projects like this are. im stoked on how it turned out but im also sad that its almost over with.

in other news , as soon as i get me bass head fixed and sold, im going to order an emperor 4x12 to match my 2x12. kris is getting a 6x12 from mojotone and i cant let him be louder than me.

i think i have west nile virus from victors front porch.

pics soooooon.

Monday, June 29, 2009

redbear, day 3

so it took me 5 hours, but i sanded the entire thing down.

the sander that i borrowed completely broke about 3 hours in so the rest was done completley by hand. this, was intense.

originally i was going to leave the bottom alone, but when it came down to it, i had to see what i could do, and then it became a mission.

this project has made me feel super accomplished, its a rad feeling.

so anyway, i got the whole thing sanded and then i applied the stain.

it looks super sick, i cant wait to put on the semi-gloss top coat tomorrow and get the electronics back in.

i decided against the plexi glass idea, if the inside of the amp was cleaner, this might rule. but i am just going to by some grill cloth and make a frame to stick in the front of it. kris suggested i just stick the grills back in and be done with it. originally i hated the grills, but after all this it might look cool, im going to try it out and see what i think.

i actually did take a couple of pics this time, but they are on my phone and i need to figure out how to get them off of my phone before i can upload them.

awesome.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

redbear, day 2

so forgot to take before pictures.
and then pictures after the carpet came off.
and pictures after i used goof off to get the furry off.
and pictures after i tried unsuccessfully to start sanding it down.

i could have avoided all that typing by just saying i forgot to take pictures.
but when i was halfway though it, i felt like it would be wasteful for me to delete it all and start over.

anyway, i went to lowes today and found this really rad stain on sale for like $4 when all the other ones were $10. i was originally going to stain it black but i think this will look classier. it like a dark pine color.

i also decided that i am going to put plexi glass over the front where the ugly grate was, i think that would be sick.

anyway, sanding didnt work, the color on it is too deep and the residue left from the carpet is making it ten times harder than it should be because i have to get through that crap before any actual sanding starts to happen.

im borrowing a sander tomorrow and im going to try to take pics.

awesome, i like have a project like this going on, hopefully its going to look as rad as i think it will.

later!

redbear

thought i would make a post about something other than dumb fucking people in my life for once.

i decided, with the help of kris, that i would strip the carpet off of my recbear amp head, sand it down and stain it the same color as emperor cabinet, which is going to rule.

so yesterday, kris helped me take the chassis out and i ripped al of the carpet off. this was a serious pain in the ass. britney loaned me a pair of gardening gloves and i had some tiny pliers to work with, otherwise it would have been impossible.

i then was left with a slightly furry box of wood.

after trying, with the help of big steve, for more than an hour to sand what was left ot the fur off, i figured out that it might be a good i dea to use some sort of paint thinner or something to get the rest of it off.

so i went to lowes and bought something called goof off.

this worked wonders. the fur is all gone.

then i went to see sundrone, they killed it.

today i am going to sand everything down to the bare wood and go buy some stain. i'll post some pics later, for everyone that doesnt give a shit about this kind of thing, which is everyone but me and kris.

love, jason

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Sunday, March 29, 2009

dear world,

it seems some of you here in greensboro (and probably everywhere else) think that it doesnt cost anything for bands to go on tour, that all shows should be free, all music should be free, that we are doing this for our own personal amusement, that a "DIY punk show" is just an excuse for you to go get drunk somewhere other than your dorm room, or that a "house show" is just a reason for you to do coke in someone else's bathroom.

and plus there is probably some really cool "ironic" "90's" dance party you can go to that night instead of hanging out with your friends and supporting bands who PLAY MUSIC FOR A LIVING.

"oh, but we are poor, we have to buy BEER, and COCAINE, and whatever crap american apparel tells us we want to wear this week" what do we look like some kind of stupid rich, ny hipsters?"

no, you look like stupid, rich, NC hipsters.


FOR THE RECORD:
the donations we are taking at the door of our house show, are ALL GOING TO THE TOURING BANDS.

we are not making any money off of this, and JESUS, $5 dollars is not a lot to ask for a night of good music.

you spend more than that a day on cigarettes, come on people, you can't expect any changes to happen in this world if you arent willing to make a few tiny sacrifices.


this is what is called a "suggested donation".
an amount we would LIKE to get from everyone, in a "crazy dream world", but if you only have 2 or 3 dollars we are not going to turn you away.

you should WANT to donate.

you like MUSIC!?
BANDS make music.
sometimes its nice to get to a town and not worry if you are going to make enough money that night to put gas in your broken down minivan.

when everyone downloads your shit for free off the internet, its not like you can count on making any royalties from CD SALES.

when was the last time YOU bought a NEW CD anyway!?

...that's what i thought.

fuck.

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Sunday, March 8, 2009

graveyard sex

i can't help but say something like "it's never been like this"
we defined the word cool and i traded a heart for a smile.
we slept together with our heads touching and i wondered if our brains would melt together and we would share the same dreams, but then wake up not remembering.




reading this just made me cry.
and this is why i love kyle milton.
in a world of a million shitty stupid zines (none of which has EVER impressed me) and mediocre writers, the anteater's dream is the only one worth reading.
it will make you laugh til you cry, and it is amazing.
issue three was just pressed.
and its rare reading something this good, let alone from a person you know, let alone a friend of yours.
and it makes me wonder, just like your friend's shitty band, is it better because i know him?
but the answer is no, its not, he is an incredible writer and an incredible dude, at the same time and seperately.

really, i wouldnt be doing this for just anything.
do yourself a favor and contact him, he will send you issue three, and you will fall in love.
he might even make a copy of issue two or issue one, he is a pretty nice dude.

www.myspace.com/skeetking420420


i had a pretty stellar weekend.
spring is almost here and can't fucking wait.
goodnight.

Friday, January 30, 2009

collector

compose yourself
get your thoughts down
decide what it is you have to say
because literal or not
whatever it might mean
can't be the worst decision you have ever made

but the liquid left in my lungs still feels foreign
like the stench left from that room on your skin
and its been 1,000 days but i can taste it
slightly sweet, bitter, smoke

we do this every night
still pretending like
we don't know it always ends the same

Monday, January 26, 2009

every sleepless night, has been the time of my life, i just wanted to thank you.

my life as of late has been a whirlwind of people coming and going and a touch of weird drama out of no where.

it has left me feeling...sort of disoriented? its not something i can easily describe.

some of my favorite people have found more important people, and paths, i guess these things happen, but its been hard on me and i miss them terribly. some people i had terribly missed are suddenly back in my life, which is exciting and relieving, and there are some refreshing new faces and personalities that mostly cancel out all of the aforementioned.

mostly...

also, being broke as hell isn't helping anything.

so its weird having so much happen at complete ends of the spectrum. it leaves you floating uncomfortably in the middle, but thankfully, in my case, leaning more to the bright side.

all in all, im sure things will get back to normal soon enough, they always do.
my band, is keeping everything together quite nicely, writing is going extremely well and we are all really, really excited about playing out and sharing it with everyone. if i didnt have it as an outlet i think i would lose my mind.



the future is wide open.

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