winter dies the same way every spring.

the weakerthans are the only band that can still bring tears to my eyes every fucking time.
every time.



i just saw the movie sunshine.
i have to say,
it sort of blew me away.

im unstable at the moment but it feels good to be this vulnerable every once in a while.

this year is going to be an interesting one.
on both side of the fence.
i dont know if that really makes sense.
it does to me.
this blog isnt going to make much sense, i can already tell.

i apologize in advance.

lately i have discovered some new things about myself.
i like knowing myself so well.
you know, all you have to do is listen.
its scary sometimes.
i go into my head and just think about the things i do, or don't.
i know every issue.

but lately i have been wondering why.
its not as easy to pinpoint.
and what is the cure exactly?
and would i change anything if i could?

i think i genuinely enjoy the turmoil as much as the highs.
that may be fucked up but its true and i am okay with that.
i feel alive.
and im not depressed, or really crazy, or have any serious problems.
i am thankful for that.
and im glad i can still be honest with myself, as well as most people i know.

there are some people i miss too much.
there are some people i dont miss as much as i should.
there are things i cant control.
there are things i can, but don't.
there are games i play that arent healthy.
and i wish i could stop before i hurt someone else that i love.
is knowing these things even helpful?

this is going deeper than i originally desired it to go.
im opting out before it gets out of hand.





in the end, it feels good to be able to say, if i love you, you know it.

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if mike huckabee wins

i will kill myself.

or him.


or i am moving out of the country.

i will not live in mike huckabees america.


seriously, is anyone paying attention?

number one : he is a baptist fucking minister


2. seperation of church and state? fuck no. FUCK NO.

"My faith is my life - it defines me. My faith doesn't influence my decisions, it drives them. For example, when it comes to the environment, I believe in being a good steward of the earth. I don't separate my faith from my personal and professional lives."

3. over turning the roe vs. wade verdict? fuck womens right to choose. god doesnt think its right, he asked him about it.

4. BANNING GAY MARRIGIAGE by fighting for a constitutional amendment defining marriage as one man and one woman? only straight people deserve to be happy, right? he also talked to god about this one.

5. war in iraq? keep it going.

"Setting a timetable for withdrawal is a mistake. This country has never declared war until "a week from Wednesday," we have always declared war until victory."

what exactly are we trying to "win" here, mike?

6. guns? everyone should own one. baby's. criminals. its in the constitution for gods sakes

number seven: hes a baptist fucking minister.


are you fucking kidding me.

im so angry right now.

come on america, dont let me down again.

please?




<3

back to reality.

come to think of it, i really prefer complications.

okay, thats nothing new.


shutup jason.






okay.