baby, its cold outside.

its christmas eve.
today i realized for the millionth time, how amazing my family is.
and how lucky i am to have them.

my mom and dad are the cutest people i know, they are totally still in love after 28 years of marriage. it blows my mind and continuously gives me hope that there is someone out there that i am meant to happily spend the rest of my life with. its a crazy thought, and sappy, but true.

the ride to mount airy, was cramped, but fun.

christmas eve at the lundy's is always unpredictable.
but todays event became legendary when i awoke from a nice nap to the sound of my uncle and grandfather shooting a 9mm pistol from the front porch.
arriving downstairs, what looked to be the arsenal for a small army was spread upon the couch.
now, i hate guns, with a passion, but after catching up on what i had missed, i just had to laugh.
classic lundy, man.

now, i am the opposite of a religous person.
i don't believe in christmas.
but i love this time of year and what surrounds the holiday, getting to spend quality time with family that you dont get to see very much and giving well thought out presents to the ones you care about the most.

my life is back on the upswing and i am excited about the near future:

tomorrow morning
lindsey
the nutcracker
new years eve
collector
playing music with ryan dean
going back to school
starting a career

and anything that comes my way.
i am ready for it.


merry christmas everyone, i hope you are spending it with the ones you love.

HEY!

i'm thirsty...

no.


but really, i figured it out, man.
i got this.

im going back to school and it feels amazing.

and so relieving.

i know exactly what i want to do, and it only took me 27 years to be sure.

fuck you jimmy johns, i'll be leaving soon.

this winter might actually end up being pretty alright.


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watermark

i've got this chronic problem,
where i know exactly what the outcome of a questionable situation is going to be.
but i completely ignore that
and just go for it anyway.
i guess, in hopes of the 0.000000000000001% chance
that it won't turn out the way i know its going to.

and EVERY SINGLE TIME i think that i have learned my lesson.

nope.
completely disregarded.

fuck, its draining.



on an unrelated side note:

why is it so fucking hard for people to be honest!?!?

everyone should try it, it rules way harder than you think.




so...
i'm pretty unhappy with my life right now and i have no idea where to go from here.

i have no doubt that i will figure it out eventually, but for now, its becoming increasingly difficult to stay optimistic.

and that is a feeling i'm not very used to.


lately im fighting awfully hard the desire to fall back into a hermit like state that once was very comfortable.
but i was happy to get out of.

i guess it is that time of year, though.

luckily tuesday night will always be dollar night.
see you at the bar, man.

today's the day.

i think i might have been a little bit upset when i posted that last entry.


tonight we drink to new beginnings.




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tonight's the night.

i want to crash my car into the ocean.
i want to ride my bike to the moon.
i want to sleep in the baseball stadium.
i want to start a fire in my room.
i want to break my computer.
i want to make some popcorn.
i want to hide this picture.

i want to fuck a complete stranger.

i want to drink until i blackout.
i want to take another shower.
i want to eat a cheeseburger.
i want to murder everyone with a McCain/Palin bumper sticker.
i want to tear down every fucking billboard.
i want to turn my phone off for a full year.
i want to learn how to lie again.


i want to always remember that its going to get worse, before it gets better.
but it will always get better.

my life

is the best sitcom you have ever seen.

romance
drama
comedy
action
adventure
new twists around ever corner!!!

what will happen next!?!?!?!?

tune in to find out.



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battle axe.

today i am angry.
for the first time in a very, very long time.
over bullshit, ALL OF IT.
way too much at one time.

i never fucking learn.

my name is jason foster.
tomorrow i will be 27 years old, and i'm fucking pissed off.
happy birthday to me.



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